from a top school but unfortunately graduated with very low grades and took a lot of advance math classes and advance derivatives/ accounting/ statistics classes which i barely scraped through. Since my uni was amongst the top 5 in the world, most of my classmates got excellent jobs in a wide array of fields and some are Phds in economics at MIT/ Harvard. The ones who did badly like me and didnt get top jobs, went in for a CFA or scored a 720 plus on the GMAT and went to other top schools.
However, I was depressed and got admitted to a hospital for 6 months. The wasted year made me realise that most of my classmates had already become associates in top banks etc. My mental illness forced me to return to my country as well, leaving behind all my friends who have now moved on. Since I was not a citizen of the country i studied in my outcome was way worse than others with the same grades as me.
I recovered in october 2019 and joined a startup with a salary of only about 500 dollars a month. I handled the operations and finance of the firm and was well prepared for the valuations and projections/ accounting statements which were needed for the role. I am still at the firm and my boss is a well connected Oxford grad who has worked in private equity etc and i get to learn a lot from him but unfortunately there is no space for any growth.
This brings me to my present situation. i have turned 24 and have nothing to show for it. I graduated at the top of my high school but just couldnt handle the advanced finance and math classes. I really dont know what interests me and i have offers in finance and business analytics at mid tier schools but i really dont know if i can handle all the math heavy courses.
I decided to prove to myself that i too can clear the CFA like my friends etc but i just keep working from 8 am to 2 am, trying to solve some conceptual issues. I have been stuck on deferred tax liabilities for the past 3 days and dk how to handle anything.
All this has made me very depressed and idk what my goal should be and if i will be able to find any job in the future. I just dont feel like living anymore as i am an utter failure who got in a good uni by fluke. All the business analyst roles in my country require the CFA or an engineering degree. I know that banking etc has people with a much higher iq than me who will not give a chance to an utter loser like me. I hope i can get some advice
However, I was depressed and got admitted to a hospital for 6 months. The wasted year made me realise that most of my classmates had already become associates in top banks etc. My mental illness forced me to return to my country as well, leaving behind all my friends who have now moved on. Since I was not a citizen of the country i studied in my outcome was way worse than others with the same grades as me.
I recovered in october 2019 and joined a startup with a salary of only about 500 dollars a month. I handled the operations and finance of the firm and was well prepared for the valuations and projections/ accounting statements which were needed for the role. I am still at the firm and my boss is a well connected Oxford grad who has worked in private equity etc and i get to learn a lot from him but unfortunately there is no space for any growth.
This brings me to my present situation. i have turned 24 and have nothing to show for it. I graduated at the top of my high school but just couldnt handle the advanced finance and math classes. I really dont know what interests me and i have offers in finance and business analytics at mid tier schools but i really dont know if i can handle all the math heavy courses.
I decided to prove to myself that i too can clear the CFA like my friends etc but i just keep working from 8 am to 2 am, trying to solve some conceptual issues. I have been stuck on deferred tax liabilities for the past 3 days and dk how to handle anything.
All this has made me very depressed and idk what my goal should be and if i will be able to find any job in the future. I just dont feel like living anymore as i am an utter failure who got in a good uni by fluke. All the business analyst roles in my country require the CFA or an engineering degree. I know that banking etc has people with a much higher iq than me who will not give a chance to an utter loser like me. I hope i can get some advice